Not that there is any specific reason. Everything is going fine. I've just been restless and anxious. Now, I know God is in control, but who hasn't struggled with the concept of, "Let go and let God?"
But how do you really do that?
Step 1.) Bible reading plan on anxiety. Check.
Step 2.) Write it out. Check.
Step 3.) Talk about it. Check.
So why am I still awake at almost 2 am?
Because I am not trusting.
Trusting that God has my back and will bless our adoption. Trusting that He will provide the funds. Trusting that sweet Baby P'Wich will be in our arms in 90 days or less.
But here's the thing... Our Father is the mover of mountains. The creator of the smallest and the largest creatures in our world. The Father of all. There is nothing He can't do.
So why am I worried?
Because humans are flawed. And He loves us anyway.
Praying for you my friend. Its funny, my last blog post was about the same thing...my need for control. http://planforyoujones.blogspot.com/2013/05/control-freak.html
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Amen! That is the thing I struggle with the most, my need to control the situation. I'm forever reading Matthew and Philippians. I will check out your post! :)
DeleteYou read my mail, friend. I really feel that in this season of my life that is the same lesson He is trying to teach me. To trust in Him all the way and (even harder) to allow Him to handle my disagreements and fights with others.
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